The beginning of something.
This will maybe start as word vomit, but I think it will get better over time. there is just a lot to get out in the beginning.
I am starting this blog because I need to make a change. I have so many things that I want to accomplish, and sometimes it feels overwhelming. I feel overwhelmed, yet I look at where I am in life and I haven’t accomplished a fraction of what I want. I don’t even have it clearly defined what I want to accomplish, but I just feel that I am so far from where I want to be.
I know that I need to make a health change. I work out, but I am definitely overweight and probably very close to being obese.
I feel like I want to make a career change. I have a decent job where I make decent money with a good work life balance, but I feel so unfulfilled with what I do. I am merely a pawn for the cash grab that my company operates.
I have no hobbies, nor friends that I go do activities with. After my unfulfilling job, I sit around at home literally watching random videos or sports until I go to bed. Then I wake up and do it all over again.
There are some things that I know I want. Before that though, I have to show my appreciation, because I am not short of opportunities and beautiful things in my life.
Firstly, I am thankful for my beautiful family. I have a beautiful loving relationship with my wife and kids. I wish I could do more with my family, giving them experiences they will remember and cherish as we all age. I know that my wife loves to dance, but I am shy. I know that my kids would love to go outside and adventure more, but many times I am lazy.
I am able to pay my bills, even though I don’t save a ton of money each month. I have a roof over my head, we won’t go hungry, we have streaming services and internet, we are in a good school district, and we are surviving. Really, we have first world problems, but I can’t shake the feeling that I am not thriving right now.
In trying to think what I wanted to get out of starting a blog, I realized that it could be a way to hold me accountable. I want to do things like getting more fit, learn to program, get a cyber security job, find new hobbies that I can showcase in this blog, grow as a person, start to thrive, and eventually leave behind a written record for my kids on what it was like during this time from my perspective.
Right not, I think I will leave this with my rough goals for the short term to be refine in the next post.
- Complete 75 hard
- Complete my learning to Program Syllabus for Python & Django
- Start a new hobby – Ideally spearfishing, scuba, or something with the ocean
- I know that I need to socialize and network more
- I know that I want to build more memories with my family, doing fun things
- Cook more
- Get a new job that is more fulfilling and just better
- Buy a house, while staying in roughly the same area